Shit happens... deal with it!!

by William Brothers

I'm going to live my life
Like every day's my last
Without a simple goodbye
It all goes by so fast

And now that you're gone
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

I'm going to open my eyes
And see for the first time
I've let go of you like
A child letting go of his kite

There it goes up in the sky
There it goes beyond the clouds
For no reason why
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough

For you to hear me now
I'm going to look back in vain
And see you standing there
When all that remains
Is just an empty chair

And now that you're gone
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

There’s no more waiting holding out for love
You are my god sent
That I’ll feel forever deep in love
My angel from above
Heaven knows
I’m head over heels and it shows
I played every field I suppose
But there is something about you
When you’re around baby I have found I get lost in you

What is this feeling?
I never learned before
That I should tend to,
swear to, surrender ever more
That’s what I came here for
Heaven knows
I’m head over heels and it shows
I played every field I suppose
But there is something about you
When you’re around baby I have found I get lost
In the wonderful days
Lost in your wonderful ways
Heaven knows…

Ooohhh…
When you’re around baby I have found I get lost…
Heaven knows
I’m head over heals and it shows
I played every field I suppose
But there’s something about you
When you’re around baby
I have found I get lost in you.

Sorry for the delay of updates.....

I'll try to post soon all the backlog entries I have!!!

Thanks!

May 23, 2005

Answer to the blog on how you could lose the people you care about.

It is easy to lose the people you care about.

My answer to the question may be rather paradoxical. But life is uncertain and unpredictable to believe things. And whatever you try to do, no matter how you try not losing that person, one way or the other you will lose that person.

It is very easy to lose the people you care about without doing anything. Cause no matter how you try not to hurt the people you care about, you will hurt them either way. It may be the thing you said the other day or the thing you never said. It could be anything. But you wouldn’t know it won’t you?! You wouldn’t know anything about it cause they never say anything. They would just leave you hanging out there to dry. Waiting for the day that they would notice you are still there waiting.

But I learned how not to lose the people you care about. It is easy. You just have to not care at all. It is not caring at all. Because when you care, you risk building a relationship. And that relationship would cause you to attach emotions to it. When you attach emotions to someone or something, you risk yourself from all the emotional carriage it brings along.

It is contradicting statement. Yes, but that’s the only way you wouldn’t hurt anyone and wouldn’t hurt yourself as well.

May 22, 2005

Just had a convo with a friend. We chance upon informations which are throwed from mishap conversations with people. It’s funny you get to discover secrets from their own mouths.

And realizations just kept pouring in… It seems I am or we are exiled from the world I/we used to move around in. It’s sad it had to be me to cause the chaos that rooted for everyone’s true colors to show…

As I have said in my earlier entrie (Reality check), I don’t know who’s telling the truth anymore. Who’s real, who’s lying… who’s a friend, who’s not… Things have definitely changed. Everyone has changed a lot!

I couldn’t understand this standoff’s extent… why does it have to take long to mend?

So many questions, yet no answers to fill in the void. As each day goes by it is another day we can’t get back to and as the days goes longer we widen the gap further.

You reach out your hand yet it is snubbed. What happened to all the things you all have said when things were still ok? Everyone has acquired amnesia. To think the storm we have encountered is not that great and yet we crumbled to the ground. In these situations you would see and be able to separate who’s real from who’s not.

I couldn’t describe what a friend is, what it should be, or how things should be between you. But all I know is it shouldn’t be this way. Friends should be able to talk about disagreements or anything without doubts or awkwardness. You don’t make them feel unwanted or awkward or cut off from your life. You shouldn’t go around lying about things and keeping informations. I can go on and on with things you shouldn’t and should do… but if you really are a friend, you should know that from within.

Well, what can you expect if they only consider you as a MEAN TIME FRIEND? That was a question asked by another friend one time. I never knew friendship had classifications. Probably I thought I did. Well, cause I thought I found a treasure chest full of gold. But then again it was just all… all talk. All promises that are broken.

Its funny how one mistake could cause the good things you’ve done to just perish in thin air…  

This is how things are right now. I am not complaining. Maybe it was my fault. Maybe this is the way they really are. Maybe things should be this way....and you should stop hoping, even if hoping is the only thing you've got. No, i didn't leave anyone. I was the one left out standing stranded on the same ground. And its time...I am forcefuly closing another chapter of my life now. Cause it has to be that way.... Everyone is gone....

And All I have are memories too keep…